Firstly, thank you all so much to the kind people behind the hundreds of comments, tweets and emails I’ve received since I wrote my last post. Some of you also shared your personal stories of similar experiences, it helped me know I’m not alone. Your love and support has really touched both myself and Matt, it means so much to us to be in your thoughts and prayers.
Last Friday we attended William and Noah’s funeral along with our families. It was a heartbreaking moment stepping into a hearse which held our babies in a tiny white casket, so surreal and so wrong. Although plenty of tears were shed and it was such a sad occasion, we had a lovely service for our boys and it was the perfect goodbye. We’ve visited their grave a few times since and it has brought some peace knowing they’re at rest together alongside other babies who were taken too soon.
After the funeral we planned a few days away together in Bakewell, a small village in the Peak District. We stayed in Glendon Guest House, a beautiful three story house where we enjoyed a cosy four-poster bed and fluffy pillows for some much needed rest and relaxation. As expected, Bakewell was filled with charming stores, bursting with shabby chic decor and quaint furniture. We also took a trip to Chatsworth House which had been decorated for Christmas and featured lavish tributes to family favourite pantomimes such as Sleeping Beauty, Cinderella and Peter Pan, which I’ll be sharing with you in another post.
I’m going to try and get back into the swing of blogging regularly, it provides some momentary light relief from the darkness and brings some sense of normality back into my life. At some point I may also write about my pregnancy and birth experience, I feel it would be a cathartic process.
But for now, here’s some pictures from our time in Bakewell…
You are incredibly brave, you and Matt both. I can't even express how sorry I am for you, take your time and don't rush anything.
Your time away looks beautiful, and I imagine was a lovely break away from it all for the two of you.
Xx
I'm glad things are looking up! It is hard, but it will get better 🙂
xx
Take care dear xx
I used to live very near to Bakewell, as my mother lives in Ambergate. I love it there, such a beautiful place. I'm glad you took a few days away together and I hope the pain eases as time goes by. Can't imagine what you both must be going through but I hope life gets easier soon xo
All my love, thoughts, and hugs are with and for you and Matt at this difficult time.
Your blogging family are all here supporting you.
I'm pleased you had the opportunity to have some time together. Stay strong, your beautiful and we are all thinking of you xXx
All my thoughts are with you, you're being so strong. I hope the break helped, even a small bit.
All my love, lea x
I can't even begin to imagine what you've been through. You're a much stronger person than me. I hope the trip away helped a little bit. Bakewell is lovely.x
My thoughts are with you both. I hope the small trip away helped in some small way. The place you went to looks beautiful – some lovely little boutiques!
xxx
You're such an inspiration for being so strong. It's great that you and Matt had a nice trip. I hope everything gets much easier with time. xx
Beautiful pictures! Glad you had a lovely time, stay strong 🙂 xx
I really like those photos, they look adorable 🙂
I'm very glad you're better now, you seem like a very strong woman. I wish you all the best 🙂
Lovely photos, sending you all my love x
Take your time. Losing love ones takes awhile and you should never rush that "feelings".
Whatever you want to talk about we will be here even without words & just pics. We will understand.
Annie (NJ, USA)
All my love and thoughts with you and Matt right now. You're so brave for even talking about it and I'm sure many, like myself, are grateful and touched that you shared it with us.
it0s very nice to see you blogging. i wish you and your family all the best x
Really lovely photo's. My thoughts are with you xx
Such sad news, so sorry for your loss.
Bakewell is a beautiful place. Xx
Looks like you had a lovely time away together. The shops looks so inviting. I love little shops like that.